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So, I decided I would do a before and during picture from this year. The first picture was the very first picture I ever posted on this blog :)
It was on January 10 2013, the day I turned 20. I decided I wanted to continue losing weight and get over the plateau I had been facing from October 2012- January 2013. In the first picture I weigh 217 pounds.
The second picture is a picture I took today, after I have been going to the gym 4- 5 days a week for about 4 1/2 months. I have been eating mostly clean foods during this time. Since February I have been a vegetarian. And most recently in these last two week I have been eating 100% clean foods and eating a more vegan style diet.
The last time I weight myself I was 210 lb. That was at least 3 weeks ago. I’m really hoping/thinking that I lost at least another 2-3 lbs since then! But I really don’t know.
Now, I know there isn’t a huge difference in these pictures and I have only lost 7 lbs. However, I feel like comparing these two pictures I definitely look more fit and more healthy in the second picture. I definitely look bloated in the first picture. And I know I felt it too. I remember that day, trying to button my jeans and being so disappointed in myself for gaining weight back over the holidays and just feeling so uncomfortable. Now, those jeans are lose and I have even dropped down to a size 14!
So, my point is, even though progress is slow sometimes and there are days when it seems like it isn’t working or even worth it at all, every day counts. The time is going to pass whether I try my best or not. Sometimes it scares me to think what I would look like if I had given up on myself. But the important thing is that I have’t given up on myself and I won’t. I will keep going each and every day. No matter how long it takes
I. WILL. NOT. GIVE. UP.
So it was REALLY hot out today, well, really hot out for Connecticut weather anyways lol. It was probably like 85 and it was soooo muggy out. After the gym I was going to go get a pedicure/manicure (as a treat to myself after working so much this last week :) And then I had to go to work to pick up my tip money.
I was really nervous and insecure about wearing a tank top. I have never liked wearing tank tops. I really don’t like my arms. The last time I measured them they were 15 inches. Idk I just really am insecure about them. But it was really hot and I wanted to be comfortable. I debated wearing what I wore for a long time, especially because I knew my coworkers would see me when I stopped into work.
Finally, after a lot of pep talking and encouraging myself, I finally wore my leggings and a black tank top out of the house :p It doesn’t seem like big deal but things like this are a big deal to me. I mean, I have worked my FUCKING ASS OFF! I DESERVE TO WEAR A TANK TO AND FEEL CONFIDENT!
When I was at work one of my other friends from work was also there on her day off eating. I went and sat with her at one of the booths for a minute just to talk and say hi. One of my server friends walked by carrying a plate of food and looked at me and said “omg I almost didn’t recognize you!” so that was really nice/encouraging! :)
Also, the lady who did my nails today kept commenting on how nice my skin looks (I have been going there since I was in high school so she remembers me when I had really bad acne and was really overweight) and she couldn’t believe how healthy my skin looked, just another little bonus to eating clean/ drinking water :)
So I ate a vegan diet today 98% of the time :/
Tonight for dinner I went out for sushi with my sister. I decided before I went that I was going to stick to my vegan eating and I ordered a spicy vegetable roll and a yam tempura roll (like a sweet potato roll and only 250 cal :)
However, we are regulars at the sushi place where we go and the little old Japanese man who owns the place ALWAYS gives us a free piece of tuna. Today, he made it extra special for us because he made us a special wasabi sauce.
I didn’t have the heart not to say no. Also, I have a weak spot when it comes to sushi/fish. I honestly have no problem at all giving up diary and eggs but honestly I LOVE fish and sushi and I really wanted that piece.
I did however have the will power to ask him not to bring me the free piece of mochi (ice cream) that comes at the end of the meal.
So yeah I ate mostly vegan today.
I think what I have decided is that I am going to try my absolute best to lead a vegan life style. On a regular basis I want to cut out all meats and dairy. On a regular basis I want to eat completely clean, natural, whole, real food. However, I don’t like feeling like I am on a “diet” and “can’t” have something. While I will remain a strict vegetarian/pescetarian (no chicken, beef or pork) I think I will allow myself to have diary, fish, or eggs on occasion. Like, I can have those foods, it’s just I’m choosing to be healthy and I am choosing to not eat them. But, if I really want something I am not going to deny myself the simple pleasures in life, like eating a piece of sushi.
I’m really glad I have decided to try being vegan though. Even though being a strict vegan probably is not going to work for me, trying to live a vegan lifestyle on a regular basis really does make me feel better. As I have mentioned before, I tend to be a bit “obsessive” with food, and I often have a lot of guilt associated with eating. But, these last few days, while I have been eating a vegan diet I honestly haven’t felt guilty while eating. For what feels like the first time in my life I feel like I am eating “peacefully” and it feels really amazing. The only time I felt “guilty” after I ate something in these last 5 days was today after I ate that piece of fish because I felt like it was something I shouldn’t have. But, as I mentioned before, I am going to allow myself fish, eggs, and some dairy occasionally.
It’s weird to explain but when I am eating a vegan diet along with eating completely clean unprocessed foods it feels as if I can’t make a mistake. Like, nothing I’m putting in my body is bad, like there is no room for error. I know that sounds kind of crazy and obsessive but if eating this way lets me eat peacefully with out beating myself up for eating and if I can actually eat with out feeling “gross” afterwards then this is what I’m going to do, even if it’s tough at times and even if people around me don’t understand or judge me.
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Girls girls girls do this!!! This is the workout that helped me to get rid of alot of the lower fat… if you are like me and end up rolling around :D put your hands into a diamond shape and put it under your butt to stop you from rolling, try it i swear you will see results asap
Just did 30… feeling it
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Jes of The Militant Baker wrote an open letter to Abercrombie & Fitch CEO Mike Jeffries regarding his comments that he only wants his company’s products sold to “cool, good looking people”, a statement that excludes men and women of larger sizes.
Just to sample the witty letter (linked above) with the post post script:
“P.P.S. You should know your Large t-shirt comfortably fits a size 22. You might want to work on that.”
Why not pose with a fat dude?
I saw this post on my dash from funeralformyfat and I’m making it rebloggable (which I hope is okay) because I literally have the same problem all the time! I’m a vegetarian who recently made the change to being vegan. (I’m not a strict vegan, I’m just trying to live a vegan lifestyle for the majority of the time, I am however a strict vegetarian.) But I have been working at this Steakhouse since before I was a vegetarian so all of my friends there don’t understand :p I don’t care what they eat and I CLEARLY understand that pretty much everyone around me eats meat but I feel like they all think I am absolutely CRAZY! lol But I just really loved Sharee’s response <3
***All credit to Funeralformyfat***
Just a reminder for all of us. Start now or regret later.
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