So I ate a vegan diet today 98% of the time :/
Tonight for dinner I went out for sushi with my sister. I decided before I went that I was going to stick to my vegan eating and I ordered a spicy vegetable roll and a yam tempura roll (like a sweet potato roll and only 250 cal :)
However, we are regulars at the sushi place where we go and the little old Japanese man who owns the place ALWAYS gives us a free piece of tuna. Today, he made it extra special for us because he made us a special wasabi sauce.
I didn’t have the heart not to say no. Also, I have a weak spot when it comes to sushi/fish. I honestly have no problem at all giving up diary and eggs but honestly I LOVE fish and sushi and I really wanted that piece.
I did however have the will power to ask him not to bring me the free piece of mochi (ice cream) that comes at the end of the meal.
So yeah I ate mostly vegan today.
I think what I have decided is that I am going to try my absolute best to lead a vegan life style. On a regular basis I want to cut out all meats and dairy. On a regular basis I want to eat completely clean, natural, whole, real food. However, I don’t like feeling like I am on a “diet” and “can’t” have something. While I will remain a strict vegetarian/pescetarian (no chicken, beef or pork) I think I will allow myself to have diary, fish, or eggs on occasion. Like, I can have those foods, it’s just I’m choosing to be healthy and I am choosing to not eat them. But, if I really want something I am not going to deny myself the simple pleasures in life, like eating a piece of sushi.
I’m really glad I have decided to try being vegan though. Even though being a strict vegan probably is not going to work for me, trying to live a vegan lifestyle on a regular basis really does make me feel better. As I have mentioned before, I tend to be a bit “obsessive” with food, and I often have a lot of guilt associated with eating. But, these last few days, while I have been eating a vegan diet I honestly haven’t felt guilty while eating. For what feels like the first time in my life I feel like I am eating “peacefully” and it feels really amazing. The only time I felt “guilty” after I ate something in these last 5 days was today after I ate that piece of fish because I felt like it was something I shouldn’t have. But, as I mentioned before, I am going to allow myself fish, eggs, and some dairy occasionally.
It’s weird to explain but when I am eating a vegan diet along with eating completely clean unprocessed foods it feels as if I can’t make a mistake. Like, nothing I’m putting in my body is bad, like there is no room for error. I know that sounds kind of crazy and obsessive but if eating this way lets me eat peacefully with out beating myself up for eating and if I can actually eat with out feeling “gross” afterwards then this is what I’m going to do, even if it’s tough at times and even if people around me don’t understand or judge me.